I may be a sophomore, but I still love Winnie the Pooh more than words can describe. The characters are so adorable! My favorite character is Piglet because he reminds me the most of me. He's much more timid and shy than the other characters, and sometimes is overlooked. But yet, he always seems to do most, if not all, of the work when the character's are pulled into one of Rabbit's many projects, and he typically proves his worth by being brave. The quote I wrote above is from the Winnie the Pooh movie that just came out. The rest of his friend's have fallen into a ditch and he has to somehow get them out. He runs off but gets scared and shouts out, "I gotta get help!" But then he realizes, "Oh wait, I am the help!" It's a cute scene that describes me a little too well.
When I'm struggling with something, whether it's socially, spiritually, or just with school, I immediately want help. But I always come to the conclusion that I am the only person I know who will help me.
Wait, let me rephrase that- I'm the only person I know who will want to help me. Of course I know people who would help me, but I always feel like, unless they come up to me on their own, that I am a burden for them.
That's probably the biggest lie that's been passed down to me (unintentionally) through my extended family. That I'm just another burden. No one's ever said that to me, but when the vast majority of the things I say get blown off, I get the message. "It's too much work for me to handle you right now, maybe some other time."
This isn't something I struggle with a lot. Most of the time I shrug it off and move on because well, "that's just how my family is." Every now and then though, like when I occasionally watch Winnie the Pooh, I see little Piglet and I think about this again. He wants help, but proves he's capable of taking care of himself. Something I try so hard to do.
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