Who Knows?

So, as a Christian teen I deal with all kinds of drama... there's...

Drama at school.

Drama with my family.

Drama with friends

And... 

Drama at church. 

My family recently left the church we've been attending for five or six years. I was involved with the youth group but I've never been really attached to it. Maybe to certain friends, but never to the actual youth group. My parents feel like God wants them to not go to church for a while and just take Sundays to spend time with Him. And they love it. But I'm having a harder time. 

I've tried to stay and reconnect with the youth group at our previous church. That hasn't been going so well... some of the kids there are still friends with me, but since I've been gone for so long and my family isn't involved anymore- I feel like an outsider. Just the other night one of the students said to me, "Where've you been? I mean you come once, then ditch us, and go around to other churches being a traitor." I was too surprised to respond. I thought that he might be partly joking, so I asked him about it again later that evening. He said, "Yeah, you guys, (referring to my family), are like traitors 'cause you don't go to our church anymore." 

I left youth group feeling awful and guilty. It's not my fault God led my parents to leave the church! The only reason I continue to go is because I feel guilty for not going. I'm praying that God will show me where He wants me to be. Or if I even should be in a youth group, after all there are usually small groups that meet at my school. Maybe I could get involved with those groups. 

Who knows?