Why is it that after a long day of school, all I can focus on are the things that went wrong with my day?
Today for example, I realized that some friendships I had been hoping would grow into really strong relationships (friendships), probably aren't going to do that. And it's not like anything awful happened, it just hit me. Why am I wasting my time focusing on something that isn't going to happen unless God wants it to? If He wants it to become a strong, healthy friendship, it will. If not, it won't.
I should be focusing on the great things that happened today. I laughed harder than I've laughed in a long time. And just the fact that I laughed, at all, is something. Two months ago, I would leave school and come home and sob. Sometimes I couldn't even make it that long and I would have to go into the bathroom and cry. Why? Because guys gave me looks like I was the ugliest thing they'd ever seen. Girls wouldn't even look at me. And I hadn't done anything wrong... but here, at this new highschool, I feel so loved. And so what if this particular friendship doesn't quite work out? I have more friends and more opportunities to make friends, than I ever had or ever could have at the other school.
So, even what I consider to be a "bad" day at this school, is a fantastic day compared to what I had. The Lord has done so much for me. And I am so grateful (:
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