I Can Barely Breathe...

There's no other way to describe it. I came home today from school feeling like I couldn't breathe. Homecoming is in a couple of weeks, and all day I hear, "Oh I'm going with so and so" or "I'm gonna ask so and so to go with me." Most of Chemistry today consisted of a group of friends discussing where they would all go to eat before the dance. I don't hold anything against them, since they don't even know me, but it's hard to explain how lonely I felt for that hour. 

It's not even just that, I feel invisible at school. I came home and locked myself in my room. I cried and told God exactly how I felt.

"I'm sick and tired of being invisible. I hate who they think I am. I hate my timid, serious, almost anti-social label. They don't realize they've given me it, but they have. I see it and feel it in almost all of the conversations I have with my classmates. Especially with the guys. Why do I have to be invisible?"

What am I supposed to do? I feel like I'm living a game of hide and seek. I could cry. And I have many, many times.

I talked to my best friend not too long ago, and I felt much better. I'm not the only one who feels alone sometimes. 

God, I know this somehow works into the plan you have for my life, but why do I have to feel this way? Why do I have to feel insignificant, see through, and invisible? 

"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine." Isaiah 43:1 Well, at least I know there's always Someone who notices me(: