Something Much Better

I get my heart set on things, big and small.

When I was little, and I wouldn't get something that I wanted, be it a toy, a lollipop, (or the correct color of lollipop), it would break my heart. 

Even now, in highschool, I still get my heart set on things. They aren't as juvenile, but some are still pretty small. Because in the grand scheme of things, certain stuff is very unimportant- just like a lollipop. Going to the beach for instance, or having a certain group of friends over for a movie night. When things don't work out- when a beach day gets rained out, or my friend bails and doesn't come to a movie night, it breaks my heart. 

I remember what my mom used to tell me when I was little (at, you know, the lollipop stage). She said, "If you don't get something you want right now, trust God because he's got something much better in store for you." I remember those simple words of wisdom when small things happen. But what about when I get my heart set on big things and those don't work out?

I have had many crushes on guys throughout my young life. But never has a boy I liked... actually liked me back. Boy's I've gotten my fragile heart set on, end up breaking it. Although it has almost always been unintentional, it still has hurt. 

It's not as easy as it sounds to say, "There's someone better out there for me," again and again and again. Adults tell me, "Oh honey you're just in high school, you'll find someone much better when you're older!"

Thank you for that lovely advice. As annoying as it is, it's true. 

I guess.

 I hope...

"Trust God, he's got something much better in store for you...."