He Is Enough For Me

I’m no different than anybody else. When I’m hurting or feeling alone, my first reaction is to cover it up and pretend it’s not true. But that kills me inside. I’ve always tried my best to put on a fake smile, and build up a nice secure wall to keep people from seeing how broken I am. I tried for so long to pretend I had it all together, even at a young age I pretended that I was perfect. That everything was great. And when that failed miserably, I went a different route. I decided that if I couldn’t disguise myself and make myself look perfect, then I would just hide my weaknesses completely.  I buried my anger, my fear, pieces of my broken heart; I buried my grudges, my hate, and in the process, I buried my voice. I buried me down so deep inside myself, that I almost forgot who I was.

            It may sound great “burying” or “hiding” things like anger and fear, but when you put poison way down in the soil, the plants that grow on the surface wither and die.  So now I’m done trying to hide all of my problems. No, I’m not going to go on and on about all my issues but hey, I’m not afraid of them being seen. I’m not afraid to cry. I feel like the Lord has (and is still) allowing me to prove how strong I can be. I don’t need to fight back tears to prove that anymore. I may not be perfect, I may be broken and bruised, but I’m trying with everything I’ve got to do what the Lord wants. And His perfection is enough for me. His overflowing love is enough for me. He is enough for me. And He will always, always be.